I Will Humble Troubled Tired Persistence

23 Nov 2020

I did not complete the task—not even close really, and what I did complete was essentially wrong…

So what were some of the factors that led me to be unsuccessful?

In fact, the first several tests should have been very easy to pass as they were merely strings printed to the command line.

Nope. Exceptions are simply just another Class. One that interrupts the runtime to go another way, but that can be caught within the program to handle it. SImply put, they are just more code. When i had to write one, I understood them more—imagine that: the act of doing forces you to understand!

What could I have done better to help me be successful?

A lot of my struggles arose from the fact that I thought i knew what the tests wanted, but when i thought that I had met the criteria, the tests still were not passing for one reason or another. In a couple cases, I actually got tests to pass only to realize that I had accidentally found a work around. Delete, delete, delete, and start over! This doesn’t count as my work would not have been honest, correct, or complete.

Each night I was working past say 8 or 9PM, my work was becoming unproductive and more trial and error. I’ve noticed this actually on several occasions once I’m getting close to having to pick up the boys from school. I start to rush an then get sloppy, and the lesson here is that nothing is ever finished or done well when you only have ten minutes to do it.

If that truly is the case where you have 6 hours of work to do and only ten minutes to do it, breathe, communicate, and remember that you’re not going to finish in those ten minutes and any work that you do put out is probably going to be crap that needs to be redone.

In conclusion, i literally have the best resources (in the world) within my reach for this endeavor. The only thing that could cause me to fail at this is me. If I need help, i need to learn to ask for it. I shouldn’t expect myself to do it all on my own.

Funny, i was trying to keep motherhood out of this blog, but I said the exact same thing just mentioned to two of my sister-in-laws in the past month. A mother can do it all—or it can appear that way, but doing so is at a high cost to herself. Further, a mother expects herself to do it all and not require help, and a mother will never ask for help—her kids are no one else’s problem. A mother will completely breakdown from exhaustion, stress, or frustration before she will ask for help, and she probably will transfer these expectations over into the rest of her life.

I expect myself to do it all and am persistent it doing so, but maybe, just maybe, at times I should humble myself to ask for help before I get to the point of exhaustion, incapacitating amounts of stress, or the feeling of utter defeat and inability. After all, a little sleep and mental stability never hurt anyone…